seriously hitting a wall the last few days….

mad at myself for gorging on peeps and malted milk balls….

just wanting to feel sunshine on my face and grass under my feet…

...telling Moxie, keep strong! No moo moo!!!

...feeling good about being able to stay on the diet so far…since I carb count, the 11th day is "free" to eat whatever…today's that day, but I'm saving it for Saturday when I go see my sweetie :o)

...designing my save the date cards and have made 7 so far to pick from. Will work on a few more tonight, and will hopefully have enough to choose from on Saturday so we can send them out next week…

...decided to also make the church bulletin and the invitations myself. This will help with the budget incredibly and allow me the chance to keep playing creatively (I forgot how much I loved doing this stuff)...

Not at all surprised that test results have shown I have gall stones…so I'll be having surgery soon.  The doc also discovered that I have a small hernia right above my belly button…most likely from my last surgery.  No worries…he'll fix that while he's in there taking out the gall bladder.

Tired…really tired…not sleeping well…

Really, really happy that I have my daughter for the weekend…it's only been 2 weeks since she was last with me…but for some reason it seems much longer…

Looking back over what I just wrote and realizing I sound like a whiney little bitch…

Taz - if you mean the part about your daughter, you're so not being whiney! my mom sees me a lot since she's been back here. every couple of days. *she* tells me how much she wants to see me more and it drives me up the walls. two weeks is enough for you to miss your kid :)

having an irritated eye and am irritated by it. there's a party tonight and this isn't helping!

looking forward to the weekend.

thinking I need to start watching how I eat as well…

battling a head cold….

excited about getting my young adult son home tomorrow from madison for 8 days!

going insane for some reason….

hoping taz gets her health issues solved…

Taz, gallstones totally suck, so even if you did sound like a whiny little bitch (which you don't) you have every right.

Hanging at my friend's house, showing off my baby laptop.  Feeling bad for the thing that happened, and hope I can offer support and humor.

Having a pretty mellow day today - went for the most amazing walk this afternoon. 

Justin had a super duper day at school.

Just damned glad to be here…

In the midst of week one of the 100 Pushup program.  So far so good.

Looking forward to the weekend.

Going shoppping for birthday party supplies.  My little girl will be 2 next Saturday.

Excited to get some old dining room furniture that we hate out of our house for good.

Contemplating plans for building a swing/playset for my little girl.

Finding my overall mood improving with the arrival of spring (albeit a slow arrival).

Holy CRAP…. I cant believe shes that old already.  You're getting into the really fun years. =)

Pleased with my follow-up visit to the doctor for my surgery…I am currently kidney stone-free and don't have to see him again for 6 months when I will need another CT…

Tired after a long two weeks with a really sad case that finally ended on Thursday…

Looking at the beautiful roses Chip bought me yesterday because he knew I was crushed on Thursday…

Happy because I got a lot accomplished this week…got the dog fixed and micro chipped…Shelby's flight arrangements made for her yearly trip to MA…tickets for me for MA and a NY weekend with my high school friends…bought a bunch of new clothes (squeal)...am tan…working-out again and feel like my old snarky self for the first time in months…

Pondering my drink choices last night….amazed that I feel as good as I do…although as I get OLDER…I don't sleep when I drink….I will surely crash and burn eventually today…

Wishing I hadn't promised Shelby that we'd go to Best Buy today…

Sending Taz some good health wishes…Glory some hugs because it's so nice to see her this happy….and telling Andy to enjoy every minute…it goes by WAY TOO FAST…

telling myself that life will turn around….

wondering if there are any natural things that help with anxiety so that I don't have to go and get a script for xanax or ativan…...

thinking that knowing one of my friends is coming to visit in just over two months is helping me keep my sanity right now…..

loving the fact that I have *nowhere* to go this weekend.

tj, I've been taking these two for about a month and I've seen some pretty good results:

http://www.drugstore.com/products/prod.asp?pid=69638
http://www.drugstore.com/products/prod.asp?pid=41774

Thanks Richard…. I will def. look into this stuff cause the dreams have been horrible, the stress just as bad and the neck, shoulders and psyche are def. feeling the effects.

enjoying a lazy day at home with the boy, jamie and the puppy….

excited about going out for pizza at our favorite place….

feeling like a huge part of my life is missing….*sigh*....

going to do some quick housework…

tj, you might also want to give this a shot for sleeping:

http://www.drugstore.com/products/prod.asp?pid=30617

The melatonin is mild, but it calms you down nice.  The Quietude, however, is a very good for putting you down.  It's like an OTC sleeping pill without the groggy feeling in the morning.  I would take 2-4 (depending on how wired I felt) right before going to bed and I'd be in a coma for a good part of the night.  I stopped taking it regularly because I would constantly wake up at 4AM (feeling great, though), but I still keep it around for those tough nights.

Playing around with this OTC and herbal stuff has been quite a trip so far.  I even have a pill in my medicine cabinet that makes me a complete zombie.  It's great…I feel NOTHING after taking it.

pissed because I am in a head cold fog and it is nice out here and I could be getting stuff done…

just up from a nap and trying to get my bearings…

hoping to be able to at least get on the deck and grill something for dinner….

Finally back after a week haitus from regular life… and excited to get back in touch with all my chatter peeps (especially my bestie!).... 

need to get up off my ass and *do* things.

have let myself get sidetracked for too long.

hoping things at work will be as good as we want them to be.

thinking that I've been cranky for too long.

enjoying shirtsleeve weather at home on my lunch letting the crazy dog child out to play….

so freaking glad to see jen back in the saddle again!

Yeeee haw!  *cracks whip*

got up and worked out…but had a freaky stomach thing going on at 4am and still not sure what was up with that….

so glad I did get up as my new personal phys. therapist (lol) told me I was doing my planks wrong and showed me how to do them right….

wishing I had given her more than just a passing glance in high school…..

excited about a lunch date today with tristan…one of andrews ex girlfriends….and a really good friend of Jamie's and Jennas… It will be an hour of listening to her whine about college and I will be laughing the whole time because I will never get one word in because she talks way too much…..

still not feeling quite right….I think my tummy is trying to eat the rest of my body…LOL