big quiet empty houses that held laughter and commotion just yesterday….

long boring rides home alone with no one to talk to….

reading about people you went to high school with that are dying of cancer….

crop failures down south that make someone you cherish very sad….

timing and circumstances that made me miss the chance to talk to someone today that I miss terribly….

a long and never ending winter…..

the prospect of a very quiet summer….

missing my mom and dad….

being an orphan….

friendships that have gone astray….

discovering my milk went sour this morning at work and I can't have a tea!!!!

Realizing that my baby girl is growing up on me every day.  She's a year old now, and it went by in a flash.

Thinking about how sad my wife will be when we successfully find new homes for two of our dogs.  Three dogs and a baby in a 2 bedroom house is just two cramped.  The dogs don't get the attention they deserve and will be better off in a new home, but still it's hard to think about.

finding out that one of my cousins committed suicide on Friday…I wasn't close to her, but am very close to her brother…it just sucks ass

knowing another cousin (who I LOVE!) has been put on hospice care for end stage lung cancer…

hearing about the above made me start thinking about my brother…and missing him…

fearful that the son is again/still smoking pot…

Thinking about who to send Kaeti's Tolo pics too… and realizing that I can't send one to Gram.

Kaeti going to NYC next week.  It's very hard for me to let her do "big girl" things because in my mind she's still almost 6…. not almost 16.

Both of my good friends have mom's dying of ALS and I can't do anything about it, I can't make it better and they won't fully vent so I feel helpless and useless and not good enough even thou it has nothing to do with me

crushing on a dude and not being able to kiss him or hold his hand

crop failures down south….

Missing my dad so bad it hurts.

So so sorry Taz…